With the heart of Christ burning a desire for others and the reality of my limitations staring me in the face, I was confronted with an obvious reality. I need Christ to fill me. No problem God, just show me where the spiritual gas pump is and I will fill my tank and be on my way. Surely, He knows how much I need to get accomplished.
I had always taken time to read a devotion, glance at a verse, or listen to some teaching, and then take off to save the world for His glory. It was almost like I expected God to chase after me with a hose trying to fill me as I scurried along doing what I thought was right. Come to find out it was not exactly that way. Actually, it’s unlikely that God is chasing any of His children in order to give them what He requires us to come to Him for.
Christ actually says in Matthew 5:6, “Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be filled”. A hunger for righteousness will never be filled by anyone or anything else other than Christ. Matthew 11:28 says, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest”. Man, did I need some rest. I was exhausted in every imaginable way, but my greatest exhaustion was inside. My well was empty and no matter what I tried it seemed like I could only get drops of living water, but never a downpour.
I wanted my neighbors’ well to be filled with everything Christ had for them. Unfortunately, we were often drinking from my personal resources and not from the fountain that never runs dry. To balance things, I had to start caring for the life that God created in me so I could give them the life of Christ.
First, I had to repent for the two evils God spoke of in Jeremiah 2:13. Next was giving myself permission to say no to anything consuming time needed to pursue Him. Lastly came a discipline of hungering for righteousness. Come to find out we have a God that is ready to forgive and restore, who showed us that we must make time to be filled, and He will meet with us when we have a longing for Him.